I am so very sorry for your loss.

I don't know about having a baby third year...it's hard any time but worth it in the end. I have a 9yo, nearly 7yo and a 14mo. It was hard for me to leave the baby especially for all the hours at school, but we are so thrilled to have him in our lives.
Many hugs to you!
Natalie
(5mc's, 3 living children...all of us making it thru 3rd year!)