I am 33 yr old mom of two and premed. I have my BS degree and will start this Fall with the rest of my pre-reqs. Let me give you some backgroud.

When I was 4 i knew I wanted to become a doctor. For a while I thought pediatrician. I got good grades in high school and I felt like I could make it through college with good grades. Well, my parents put a little snag in that. When i was 16 my mother got her on her job and went through a depressing time. I just found out 2 days ago she was going to leave my step-dad if she had not gotten injured. Anyway, she took out her frustration on my sister and I. My sister is exactly 2 yrs younger than myself. She ws born o n my birthday. Things hjad gotten worse when I was ready to go off to college. I tried to stay home,but she would wake me in the middle of the night wanting to talk. :weeping: I would be in class the next day sleepy and tired. On top of that I was working full-time for a group home in the evenings. My mother told my sister and I that we had to find jobs because she was no-longer in control of her money. I had no problem with that.

My first semester I passed with decent grades. However, i was determined to stay on campus the next semester. My mother had a fit. She took me off her health insurance. I was ok with that too. My job offered it and I took it. I was not going to let her hold me back from completing school.

The second semester was mentally draining my boyfriend who had supported me for the last 2 yrs was going through some self-esteem issues. He cheated on me and I still wanted to make it work. He felt as though i needed to be with a man who was in college and who was ok with me becoming a doctor.

3rd semester we broke up and I started dropping and walking away from classes. My GPA was hurting. I was still working and going to school. At that time I was declared "Independent" so i was paying for my own school. I will explain later how that came to be.

After that 3rd semester my life went kind of crazy. I was not focused. I kept 2nd guessing myself about becoming a DOCTOR. I started hanginh around the wrong crowds. I would take classes here-and there. The whole time I had been in school I was working.

In 1992 I started working as a Nurse's Aide in a
major hospital. I went back and forth between a community college and the four year college I started out at.

Baby is in bed, I can continue.

From 1992-1994 I still was not focused like I should have been. I was dating and going out every other weekend. I got an A- in Gen Chem II, B in Soc, D+ in pre-calc, dropped Org Chem twice. I was just going in circles.

The summer of 94' I got pregnant with my first child, Kiah. Her father and I did not stay together thank GOD. It was a tough time. My parents lived 4 hrs a way and I was still trying to work and go to school. I kept asking GOD if medicine was the one for me. I was still in doudt. After having Kiah I took a year off from school, moved in with my new boyfriend who I had been friends with for years. He loved me and Kiah dearly. Tried school again with no success. I dropped the classes and used my loan $$ to pay for my car to get fixed. :no: After a few weeks he told me he did not want to watch her anymore. There I go dropping more classes. :banghead:

In 1998 I got fed up with going in circles. I wanted to get by bachelors once and for all. My parents kept urging me to move down to Georgia where they had decided to retire at. My parents moved to Gerogia the day after Kiah was born.

Kiah is the one that kept me sane. I was dropping classes and working 40-50hrs a week. I was going in circles up until i decided to move to Georgia in 1997.

Kiah's dad was not wanting to watch her while I was in school at night. My mother wanted me to come down very bad. I told her that is she watched Kiah for me than I would come. I moved down in July of 97' and started working full-time a month after i got to GA. I started back to school in Jan98'. I decided to attend a school that had classes once a week. I had planned on getting the rest of my medschool pre-reqes from a different school later.

I also wanted to find a church home and friends who believed in GOD like I did. Well, all that happened once I got to GA. I met a lady named Patrice who led me to Christ :rotfl: . I was and still is madly in LOVE with Christ. I am not a Bible thumper nor am i claming to know the Bible. I just know since I got saved on Jan 17th, 1998 I have felt so much different than before :cloud9: .

Anyway, I started really praying and thanking GOD for all the things that I ahd been through and all that he has gotten me through. In Jan of 2000 GOD put on my spirit to buy a house. I knew it was the spirit because I was not making enough money for nothing. Well, it kept nagging me so i decided that i would fix my credit when my income taxes came in. I went to a free service who helped my get my credit fixed and they told me that i could afford a house. At first I was excited, then their real estate agent showed me what I could afford. After a few weeks of disappointment I sat down with God and told him what i was looking for. By May i had found a new agent and God lead me to a subdivision that was perfect for my Kiag and I. The house was not built yet. I picked out everything. When i went to the closing on Aug 2nd the mortgage was $50 less and I had gotten a raise a week before. My raise was unexpected.
I knew then that God listend to me.


By Sept 2000 i had completed all clases but one, for my BS degree at the alternativce school. I was also enrolled at GSU for Org Chem I. On top of all that I was working 32 hrs and taking caring of Kiah. Can't forget that I had a boyfriend. Well, the same week of Sept 11th my mom's mother had a stroke. My mother was devastated. I had to be there for her emtionally. I could not afford to fly so my boyfriend and I drove to MI. I was not doing so hot in Org Chem before everything happened, and I was doing worse when I got back from MI. My garndmother passed and I dropped the class.

While I was in MI my cousin decided to move down. I thought it would be a good idea. I was going to babysit and go to school. As long as my house note and car was paid I was ok. Well, it did not work out like that. My cousin could'nt really help me pay for the bills and I had almost lost my house :weeping: .

In Jan 2001 I had 1 full-time job, 1 part-time job and I decided to take Org Chem I again. Org Chem was short lived. I was stressing out by everything. I had to drop it. I decided not to take any more pre-reqs until God said I was ready.

After I dropped the class I was getting really depressed and started 2nd guessing myself. Teh one late afternoon a patient came in the office i was working for. She told me she needed her med recs and that she was moving. She informed me that she was moving to south Carolina for med school. I was sooooo happy for her. we had got to talking and i told her that i was pre-med.

Time had passed and I am a stronger woman since i last wrote. I now have 3 kids and have down sized to a cheaper house. Steven is now working and i am at home. Let me contniue with the road i started to take.

The patient and i got to talking and she asked me if i would like some study guides. I was so excited i almost started crying. The very next day she came back with a load of study materials and a few chem books that she used. i knew then that i was still on the right track.
Well, i thought i was ready in Jan of 02'. I needed to make more money to keep my house so i quit with dr. overstreet office and foud a job closer to my house and closer to school. I do not know what i was thinking. I made the same mistake that i had made the other times. I had not taken enough time to really plan and get focused. I ended up with a WD for that semester in Org chem lab. I was luckt that i dropped the lecture in enough time. 02 was the last time i took Org chem.
After dropping the class i questioned myself again. I thought about Chiropratic medicine. I knew of a MRI facility that specailized in seeing chiro patients. As luck would have it they were hiring that Aug. The owners loved me and I started working as there Office Coordinator.

I am back!!! I will start where i left off. 2002 was very educating. My boyfriend at the time started talking about marriage. I decided to take a break from my medical schools pre-reqs and finish my classes for my behavioral science degree.
When 2003 came around i was hit with another blow. My grandfather died in Jan. I could not make it to the funeral. A few months after that Kiah decided to get her self kicked out of school. On top of that I had to move out of my house because DEFACS claimed i abused Kiah when I spanked her. I thought my life was spinning out of control.
My life was not spinning out of control, it was out of conteol. On April 28, Kiah's birthday, my boyfriend proposed marriage to me. We got married on Aug 3, 2003. We moved into a house in Dec 24th 2003.
A year had passed and I had tried not to think about medical school. My husband made me believe that we could not afford for me to go back to school.

I am back with a vengance!!!I am fast forwarding to this year 2009. I still question if this is what GOD wants me to do. I know I am here to serve the all mighty.

I came home on thursday crying because i boomed my physics quiz. I have so little time to study. Since i have a family and work 40 hrs I am not going to kill myself to get an A in this class. The man mumbles most of the class period. I have to teach myself. My allergies are bothering me today so I am behind the 8 ball with studying. My mentor said that she would take one day off during the week and spend time with her family and relax. I am going to try to that as well. I am going to start in July. Got to get back to physics.

I forgot to mention that i am taking this Art class to satisfy my last graduation requirement. I did not hand in 2 credit hrs in 2003 so they said I had to do Art or music to graduate. The Art class is on-line and I love it. A big change from Physics class that is tue and thur nights. The teacher is horrible. He mumbles through the entire class. Last Thur was the worst. I was suppose to study tonight. I completed my Art mid-term and chilled out. On top of all the school stuff our finances are horrible as well. I haved to get back to praying every night and day.