This is something I wrote today while having a mini pity-party for myself. It's kinda honest, but I thought it was worth posting because I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. Iím not perfect enough
1- I donít weigh 125 lbs and have 18% bodyfat like other better runners.
2- A 10:45 pace is speed training for me. For other people itís a jog!
3- I canít do better than 69% of other Step II practice test takers.
4- I canít stop being hungry and wanting to eat. I canít focus when hungry.
5- I canít do everything and make it look easy.
6- I donít look like Angelina Jolie.
7- Iím not 25 anymore. I have lines on my face.
8- My house is always messy.
9- I donít decorate beautifully for the holidays.
10- I canít bellydance or tango or salsa
11- Iím self-concious
12- I donít speak Spanish
13- I donít life weights or do ab exercises
14- Words slip my mind
15- I forget peopleís birthdays
16- Iím a crappy gift-giver
17- I worry about my lack of perfectionism but rarely do anything about it
18- I canít run a sub-30 min 5k for crissakes!
19- I donít cook often enough
20- I donít have enough energy
21- Iím not the smartest, kindest, fastest, strongest, hottest, wittiest, prettiest, or best person on the planet.
1- My god woman, you weighed 165lbs and had 34% bodyfat 3 years ago. Now youíre 140 with 27% and still working at it.
2- 3 years ago you couldnít have run a Ĺ mile without stopping, now you run marathons. And besides, the 10:45 is your marathon speed pace. You can run a 9 min mile.
3- So what. Youíve just started studying and 2 of those tests were messed up!
4- You run 56+ miles a week. Your genetics do not predispose you to being a lean athlete. You are trying to remake yourself and itís hard and it always will be. Doesnít mean you canít get there, though. Oh yeah, and who else training for this marathon at these miles is in med school???
5- Whatever. Bree makes it look easy and sheís seriously screwed up. We donít want that.
6- Only Angelina looks like Angelina. Again with the genetics. How many smiles and nods do you get when you dress up? Hubby doesnít want a silicon woman, he wants you.
7- Since when was it better to be 25? You had a toddler and no clue about what to do with your life. *one eyebrow* And the lines are on your face because you lost the fat underneath them!!!
8- You have a family of 5, three of them are kids who donít pick up after themselves. Youíre in med school and training for a marathon and writing research papers and studying for exams. Which would you like to give up so that you have more free time for cleaning? *eyebrow again*
9- So get out the freaking decorations and employ the kids to help out!!!
10- Easily remedied if itís really bothering you. Take lessons.
11- You were born that way. Work on it. Practice the belly dancing for hubby!
12- Yeah, sorry. And your free time for languages is when? And itís necessary why? Isnít this just gratuitous guilt? Seriously.
13- Okay. So once the marathon is over, start lifting again. You could be doing abs instead of beating yourself up. Better abs, fewer emotional bruises. :p
14- And they always have and they always will. Stressing about it makes it worse.
15- So write them down and check the calendar!
16- No you arenít. Children are just that way. Take some time and think about it if it bothers you!
17- Now thatís just stupid. Stop trying to be a model for superwoman and be you. You is good. You is great. You is unique.
18- Eh, a couple of bad days to try and do it. So what? Youíll get it in the Spring. And if you donít, I highly doubt St Peter is going to mention it at the pearly gates.
19- Twice this week already, what more do you want? See #8
20- Because you need better SLEEP. See end of December for more!
21- You are to your kids, your parents and your husband. Really, does anyone else matter?