I want to thank everyone who posted replies to my post.....I am learning each day but being shy and lil low in confidence isnt helping. Just spoke with DH and he says I am selfish to do residency for myself. Hell no...if we had tons of money I would stay with my DD than come here and struggle.I dont know how I will ever be able to go thru with this and finish well. God only knows whts gonna happen.
I am trying to stay positive and study whenevr I get time. I love to study as it makes me peaceful but I dont know if all this stress is making me have memory lapses.

Wh Life is so Tough?
I am so low today...what happened to all the dreams of being happy...what happened to all the days of carefree life n no hassles....I am an Intern at well reputed university but I feel like I am The Dumbest one....when somebody doesnt talk to me , I feel maybe they think I am dumb. I am not but it doesnt help if you have been a SAHM and then trying to do residency with a 2 yr old at home who wants every single min of ur time.
I dont know which direction I am heading. My DH doesnt make a loads of money n if I were to quit we probably wont be able to afford the apt we live in..this makes me so sad. Why is it that sometime things just dont go your way and every sec is like hell..I never imagined the residency to feel like this.I worked way to hard for it to go so wrong...why?...I miss my parents and my sister. I hate this life. Everyday I get up and force myself to go to work.I dont want to live like this .I want to feel happy abt going to hospital but if ur kid gets up at the same time and wont let u go....I can tell u getting out of the house can be very painful. I just want Dear God to help me ....