Just a quick update for everyone- I know I haven't posted in forever. A lot has happened since my last post.
On October 1, I started an ob/gyn rotation.
on Oct 2, I withdrew from the rotation due to serious doubts
Oct 3, was diagnosed with severe depressive episode with anxiety. started an outpatient program to treat my depression. Also took a leave of absense from school to get everything together.
Oct 21, after a few weeks of counseling, really started to think more clearly, me and husband decided to get a divorce after he told me he was also unhappy and was not willing to work on the marriage
Late October- withdrew from the match for pediatrics, since everything about my circumstances changed. those who kept up with my blog knew, I felt tremendous pressure to match in a specific location bc ex was already matched there and was not willing to transfer, also, was dealing with him being a surgeon (general)
November and December- spent at home with my family, away from school, recooperating, continued my therapy for depression
late December- discharged from therapy as much improved, no longer depressed
Dec 28- left for a trip to NYC/DC/London, am currently in London staying with a friend, will be here until late Jan

Future...
Feb 1- start back to school (have already found a great house to live in, located in my fave neighborhood
Sept 1, 2010- will apply for the 2011 match in ER
March 2011- will hopefully match in ER in the place of my choice
May 2011- will graduate a year late, but am happy that I'll be in a much better place for going into residency

So, yeah.... a lot has happened. I'll keep everyone posted.