Hi Everyone

Since I'm desperately avoiding studying this morning , I decided to start a blog on my favorite website.

A little about me: I'm a 24 year-old second year med student. I have been married for 20 months now and am loving it! Hubby and I have known eachother for 10 years this months, dated throughout high school and did 4 years of long-distance during undergrad. Thankfully, I was able to get into Medical School at the University where he is in the Architecture Program. He'll be graduating in June

I'm currently wrapping up my second year and nervously prepping for Boards. The overwhelming amount of work ahead has led me to be lazy this morning and start this blog. I'll be taking boards the end of May and taking the month of June off for Hubby's Grad and the wedding of some very good friends before I begin clerkships on July 3rd.

My clerkship Schedule:

Surgery (Jul-Aug)
Family (Sept)
Psych (Oct-Nov)
Selective
Selective
Selective
Winter Break
Peds (Jan-Feb)
OB/GYN (Mar-Apr)
IM (Jun-July)

It was not my first choice schedule at all, but I love the group of students I was placed with, which should make the year even better.

I'll keep you all posted! But for now, I gotta go hit the books ...

Well, I have officially wrapped up classes as an MSII. Now I just have to make it through my 3 final exams...blah! :banghead: Pharm and Path are both cumulative, which sucks bigtime at the moment; but I know when I'm taking boards in a month I will be super thankful.

We got our elective assignments for Third year and I'll be doing Anesthesia, Neurology and Radiology; I would have preferred something other than Neuro since it is mandatory 4th year anyway, but maybe it will put me a step a head, since I hope to be doing Neuro while very preggers 4th year.

I took the advice of some other posters and bought a Palm TX for next year and beyond. I actually found a great deal on eBay, so I'm crossing my fingers that all is as promised! As much as I can't wait to play with my new toy (medicine has turned me into a total gadget geek) I kinda hope I don't get it before my exams are over. I might have to make Hubby hide it from me so I don't get too distracted!

32 days until boards!!!!!!!!! You would think I would be super motivated, yet I really want all of this to be over with! At one point I was second guessing my judgement in taking boards so early; but now I know that it probably won't make a difference. I would have just taken a week or so off before studying again and would have had problems getting back on the horse. Just gotta keep chugging along at this point!

Good luck to everyone else! I know this time of year is busy no matter where in training you are. Soon it will be summer (and I'll be livin' it up in the OR :laughing: )

NO MORE PHARM!!!!!!!

One exam down and 2 left (well, and boards, too.)

Back to the books :guilty:

No More Exams!!!! You could say that I am one happy chica!! I even got to spend the afternoon with my husband and family. Most of my classmates are probably out drinking somewhere, but I'd rather be curled up with hubby. I'm sure this makes some of my classmates think I'm snobby for never going out. But he's the one who has supported me for the last 10 years and he'll be the one there long after we (my class) have all gone our separate ways.

As we get closer to starting a family it makes me take stock in the things that are truly improtant to me. And my Family is definitely highest on the list. Sure, I may have done a few % better on my exam had I skipped my brother's college grad. But it was totallly worth it to watch him walk across that stage! Yes, I could take boards later; but I will feel even more proud when I watch hubby accept his diploma after 6 long years! Yes, I'd love to be AOA (what med student wouldn't?) but I'd rather maintain my relationships with my family and friends and I am just not naturally that smart. I'm pretty sure that the monemt I hold our little one in my arms for the first time; it will be the best feeling on earth! Screw school...given the choice I'd rather be a mom!!!

But for now, I will bask in the accomplishment (and relief) of finishing year 2 I can't believe I'm half way done!! :cloud9:

72 hours from now I will be finished with boards!! I can't figure out whether to freak out or Jump for Joy. I will be so happy to have these things over with. But, honestly, I have so many things floating around my head now that I wonder if I'll be able to assemble it all into a cohesive thought let alone 350 cohesive thoughts... :crossfingers:

Whew!! Boards are over!! Although, I walked out of there feeling like I had my ass handed to me...Now I just have to sit back and hope I did well enough to pass!

I've enjoyed having the last few days off! Hubby and I have gotten a lot of things done around here that we've been putting off for months and we're gonna spend the afternoon at a local amusement/water park for some much needed relaxation

We begin orientation for third year on June 28, which at the moment feels like eons away. But if June passes as quickly as May did, I'll be putting on that white coat before I know it. We put in our requests for placement for the surgery clerkship, so now I'm just :goodvibes:

Well, even though the weather didn't cooperate graduation weekend was a blast! Hubby was so excited and I'm so proud of him!

That said, I'm exhausted and completely family'd out! I know it meant a lot to my hubby to have them all there for everything, so it was worth it; but they mentally and emotionally exhaust me! They only live an hour away, so luckily the only one who stayed with us was his older brother, who was actually a huge help getting everything ready for the party yesterday.

I've known my hubby for 10 years and his family for all of it and i used to have this idealistic notion that we would hit it off as well as hubby does with my family. Yeah right. I've tried and tried to click with his little sister and we get along, but have very little in common. At first I thought it was the age gap (4 years) but now that she's in college its still not that much better. (kinda sucks because he is really close with my brothers and I always wanted a sister). But his parents are driving me nuts!! I was explaining to some friends what his theis was about when they asked and his dad completely interrupted me! Ugh! He always has to be the center of attention! But what can I do but bite my lip? I know they're proud of their son (he's the first in his famiy to graduate from college and now has his masters) but he's my husband and I'm proud of him, too!

Then, we're sitting the 3 hr long all-school graduation ceremony and I'm talking to his mom about EVERYTHING...she cannot sit next to someone for more than 5 seconds in silence. And she starts telling me about how good she's been about not pushing the grandchildren thing. (Hello, by telling me this YOU ARE PUSHING IT) {Now, hubby and I can't wait to start a family, but we have not told our families this because we want to do it on our time frame with out all their opinions and "helpful advice".} Anyway, she keeps going on about how she and my mom have been so good about it because we're still in school etc. And I did agree that my mom has said nothing. She then proceeds to tell me how hard it must be on my mom not to say anything because I'm the oldest and she doesn't have anyother grand kids yet and I've almost been married for 2 whole years. But that its easier for her (MIL) not to be pushy because she does have two grand daughters already, but that she would love more because she doesn't see the other two enough. (another side note, hubbys older brother just completed a messy divorce and has been living with my in-laws for almost a year in the process, and since he gets his daughters every other weekend, there for so does my MIL, who gives them very little time alone with their dad) Apparently she thinks she'll be spending more than every other weeknd (the whole weekend) with our kids. um, no. Ugh! Family!

Hubby was pissed when I told him all of this and swears we're not telling his mom I'm prego until the baby pops out. We'll just tell her I'm getting fat and then promptly move out of state. Lol! It makes it easier that he's on my side and can at least see the crazy; but it was a struggle to spend all that time alone with them while he was taking part in the ceremony.

All in all it was a great weekend, but I just needed to vent about my in-laws! At least hubby and I can laugh about it together! But I have a feeling this will be a very interesting experience!

On a happy obsession note: I have my pre-conception visit on the OB/GYn on wednesday I want to make sure I'm as immune as possible and up to date on all my vaccinces before I start in the hospital and we start trying. Even though we don't plan on stopping my birth control and moving to condoms until surgery is over in August, I want the check-up done before my clerkships start. Something tells me this is gonna fuel the baby obsession fire!!

Well, only two days left of my summer vacation We begin orientation Thursday and I start surgery on Monday :yikes:

Our first week will be in the classroom, and I think we even lucked out and get the 4th off :unitedstates: Then I'll be spending my first 3 weeks with the burn unit at Shriners and then 3 weeks of General Surg at the VA, then 1 week of elective procedures and shelf prep.

Luckily, although my daily schedule will be brutal because it's surgery; I don't have call at Shriners and VA is home call. So all in all, it could have been a lot worse.

I am really nervous about beginning clerkships in general. Do I know enough? Will I be able to manage all the responsibility? Will I get yelled at? My biggest fear is that I'll hurt someone! But my friend who is a nurse, just jokes with me that the nurses' biggest job is to make sure none of the medstudents or interns kill patients. I'll just have to trust myself and have faith in everyone else's experience.

I'm also a little anxious about the time I'll be spending on the Burns service. I have heard it's pretty rewarding if you like working with children, (which I do!) but at the same time I have a feeling that it will be emotionally exhausting. Plus, something about burns freaks me out and I guess that's probably pretty normal and probably dates back to the whole caveman, fire, and survival of the fittest thing. I just hope I'll be able to deal with that part so that I can help as much as possible with the patient care part.

I'll try and post more as we actually get rolling with the clerkship; but I have no idea if I'll have time.

Guess who will actually be taking care of patients today?!?! I'm nervous and excited all at the same time! Didn't sleep much last night, but I guess I should get used to that! Surgery, here I come!

Well, I can see the light at the end of the surgery tunnel! All in all it has been a great (if exhausting) experience!

I really enjoyed my weeks on the burn service; and got to work with a wonderful group of people. I really learned a lot about surgery and critical care; but most of all I loved taking care of the same patient for the whole 3 weeks. Most of the cases we're incredibly sad; but at the same time it was so rewarding to watch the progress of these amazing kids! Just watching their daily struggle made me want to become a better physician. If you could make it through this rotation with out being touched by these kids; medicine isn't for you. They were such an inspiration! Everytime I felt tired; I looked at everything they we're going through and my life seemed so easy. When I was exhausted post call; all I had to do was look at their parents to see what dedication and faith are all about.

We did see the results of some horiffic abuse cases and it was heartbreaking to see what some parents are capable of doing to their own children. Why can people like that have children, but there are so many nice, loving couples that struggle with infertility? I think the most difficult part of the service was dealing with these ugly realities head on. But the best part was the smiles of these courage children It was music to my ears to hear my patient with a trach actually speak when it was downsized and we all cried when one of our most severe patients responded by nodding his head.

Burns service was truly a once in a life time experience; and just furthered my desire to work with kids.

Everything else is going well; just not a whole lot to write about. Hubby and I did celebrate our 2nd wedding anniversary and he suprised me with a trip to a local vineyard for a wine tasting and dinner. It was such a romantic night and exactly what I needed. We haven't been able to spend as much quality time with each other the past month as we would have liked; so that evening was a real treat!!

I start my 3 weeks at the VA tomorrow and then on to the world of family practice

Ahhh! After a blissful weekend off I finally feel like I'm pulling out of my weeks of sleep deprivation! Our patient responsibilities for surgery ended on Friday afternoon and all I have left is a week of class and the shelf on Friday. I've heard the shelf is pretty hard, especially if you haven't had medicine yet. But, honestly, I just want to do well enough to pass surgery and not have to do it again!

All in all, it has been a great experience; but I don't think I could handle those hours for much longer. I'm kind of a morning person, but 400am is WAY too early! And then we're supposed to read and study in the evenings? No way! Thanksfully this week is light and I'll have time to catch up! But, I love taking care of patients and being in the OR was pretty cool! I got to scrub in on a AAA repair on Friday and this guys aneurysm was 9cm from just infra renal to the iliac bifurcation. He was so skinny that you could see it pulsating underneath the blankets! I know I'll never get another chance to see something like that, let alone help fix it, so I'm just trying to take in everything I can. Although, I think my favorite part is talking to the patients and connecting with them. I even helped enroll someone in the VA smoking cessation program I really think I'm gonna enjoy my psych rotation! As much as I enjoyed being in the OR, I really like helping people address the problems in their lives and helping them find solutions to work them out. Oh, and working at the VA after working at Shriner's just confirmed my desire to work with kids

On the obsession front, my college roommate found out that she and her husband are pregnant. She's 8 weeks and due the end of March! I'm so happy for her/them since they have been such wonderful friends of mine and hubby's for so long! (our husbands actually played little league together, and we all went to high school to together) Another friend and her husband started trying this past month, too! So I guess one good thing about surgery is that it has kept me too busy/tired to really focus on the fact that we have to wait a little longer! Don't get me wrong, I'm incredibly excited for my friends, but at the same time I miss having their sympathy during the "everyone's pregnant but me" moods. :rotfl: But I did officially stop my hormonal bc yesterday and we'll officially start trying sometime after thanksgiving! I should definitely keep that spontaneous quads thing underwraps!! I didn't know that could actually happen! Wow! One baby will kinds stretch the budget, but 4...whew!

Ok, gotta go study for my quiz this afternoon! Good Luck to everyone!

Well, I definitely enjoy FP way more than I did surgery The hours are actually normal and I feel like a person again I never liked clinic during surgery and was really worried that it would be an issue with the other clerkships. Even though I don't think I'll end up in FP, I really enjoy it. I get to do H&Ps by myself, present to the attending and then we both go back and see the patient together. I let him know my interest in kids early, so he's great about letting me work with the kids. He even made it a point to say that Family Docs work with kids, too. I have great respect for what they do, but I just don't think its for me. I know it's important to have docs that are capable of managing adults with many illnesses; but it overwhelms me. I really enjoy talking to the elderly and other adults, but it can get exhausting. On the other hand, my eye-light up when ever I get to do a well child check or even if some one brings their kids with them.

Wow!! I can't believe it's been 5 weeks since my last entry. Lots of things have happened, but things are still pretty much the same in some weird way. I really enjoyed FP, but at the same time, I'm still pretty sure that it's NOT what I want to do the rest of my life. I just finished 3 weeks of adult inpatient Psych and started 3 weeks of child inpatient psych today. So far, I love psych!! The hours are nice enough for me to feel like a real person and there is never a dull day! It's very different from anything I've done before, but I love just spending time talking to my patients (and playing games with them in child). It's amazing how sick these patients seem to be, but after talking to them for a while, it's easy to see that they are not that different from the rest of us. Most of them still have similiar hopes and fears, even if they may be masked by bizarre delusions, deep depression or pathologic coping mechanisms. Some of these young children have been through so much, yet still have so much to offer the world. It's odd to see children that have been so hurt, yet are able to begin to build trusting relationships. I think that's why I like child psych so much, because there's a little bit of optimisim; that maybe if we can help these kids now, they won't suffer as much as the adult patients have. I'm totally aware of the stigma that's still attached to mental illness in our society, but I think that's part of the challenge of psych. The more we learn, the more we're finding out about the biology behind these disorders; yet so many people still think mental illness is something people can "snap out of". I think part of our role as physicians is to educate the community and our patients about illnesses from diabetes to depression. Anyway, long story short: I really like Child Psych, but I'm waiting to try Peds before I decide between Peds, Psych and Triple Board.

Hubby and I are still waiting patiently (ok, not so much on my behalf) until December to begin TTC. We booked a trip to Key West for my Christmas Break to officially kick things off Hubby went SCUBA diving there during undergrad and has always wanted to go back together...hopefully it will be our last trip as just a couple for a while

PARROT OUT :rotfl:

Psych is still going well It's hard to believe that I only have one more week left. We have our shelf on Friday, so I should be studying; but I'm procrastinating! It's so much harder to sit down and study in thrid year than it ever has been before. I think most of us have made the transition to the working mentality, so sporadically switching back into study mode is increasingly difficult. Luckily, I like the material, so once I actually get going it's definitely less painful than studying biochem!

TMI ALERT: :goodvibes:
I decided to bite the bullett and buy the software that goes with TCOYF and so far have been very happy with it. My username there is the same as here so if anyone else happens to be a member, feel free to PM me! I've mostly been lurking on their boards because as of now we're still using protection and not TTC, but we're not truly TTA either.

As excited as we are about TTC soon, ofcourse the OCPD (admit it, we're medical students; we all have a bit of it )in me can't help to worry... We have some very close friends who have been trying for several months to get pregnant, then my other friend and her hubby got preg on their honeymoon. It's the lack of control and the unknown that scares me a little bit. But I know I just need to have faith that it will be ok and all work out in the end. Then there's the worries about $, my health, the stress of school and parenthood. My one friend has been VERY exhausted through her pregnancy and I'm pretty sure I won't have the luxary of afternoon naps to get me through Peds, OB/GYN and IM. Thankfully, I have all of you supermoms here who have done it before me to show me that it can be done! I feel so blessed to have found this truly unique community of women :goodvibes:

Since hubby and I have decided not to tell our families or most of our friends that we're TTC it's great to have this avenue to express my feelings. We really want to suprise everyone with the news Plus, if it takes longer than we expect it will be easier if a million-and one people aren't calling to check on my "aunt's" arrival! I can just picture us finishing the big BD (babydance) to have my MIL call and ask if I'm "with child yet". LOL!! But as the holidays approach it get's harder and harder to keep the cat in the bag! I'd love to ask for baby stuff, maternity clothes and a video camera for christmas; but we don't want to jinx anything! It was a bit awkward last weekend at my in-laws when I was playing with my nieces and BIL asked when it was gonna be our turn. Since DH and I had them nice and wound up at that point he laughed and said, "Nevermind, they're probably the world's best birthcontrol when they're acting like this". Yeah, if you only knew, it makes us want one even more!!!

Ok, definietly gotta go study now!!
PARROT OUT!! :p

Well, I officially finished Psych this morning!! I can't believe how quickly this year has passed! I was just re-reading some of my earlier entries and it seems like just yesterday that I was stressing about MS 2 exams and Step 1 and now I'm almost 1/2 way through 3rd year!

WARNING NBME VENT AHEAD:
The shelf was difficult (yes, I know if I spent less time on here and more on studying...blah, blah, blah!) but I think it went ok. The damn vignettes are so long and after we have it beat into our heads that we need to be through, take our time and consider all infor and possible DDx, we then get 2hrs for 100 cases...BOO NBME!! I think I'm on the right track, but end up way short on time and have to guess for the last 10-15. Same thing happened on surgery, too! Blah! Before I started tx for ADHD, I didn't take enough time on tests and now I take too much..oh well. C'est La Vie!

On a brighter note, I had a great meeting with my attending to go over my evaluation. He even invited me back to do an AI next year (too bad it won't count as one of my required IM ones...) I'm leaning more and more towards psych every day, but I think it will be good to have a break from it for a little while just to make sure.

I begin anesthesia on Monday which should be intersting. It will be weird going from a specialty with ALL talking to patients to one where we knock'em out. The hospital where I was assigned does a ton of OB, so sadly the part I'm looking forward to the most is the possibility of seeing some OB and babies Plus, the hours won't be too bad! Other than the 3 shelf exams (4 if you count today) it should be smooth sailing until winter break. I have 2 wks each of anesthesia, neurology (mostly shadowing) and Radiology. I would have been nice to have this later in the year when I'll hopefully be pregnant, but I'll take the break to make some eggies :goodvibes:

Well, I'm taking a break from studying anesthesia to procrastinate yet again. All in all the past two weeks haven't been too painful, but they weren't that exciting either. I wish I liked anesthesia more, the hours are pretty benign and the pay is pretty good. But, I find it boring. Yes, there are exciting parts and it was neat to do procedures again; but I found myself missing the personal interaction of psych. Before psych, I wondered if I would miss the procedures and PE from surgery and FP; but found that I didn't. Anesthesia reminded me of how boring surgery was. It was nice to wear scrubs again and not have to iron; but other than that it will be nice to rejoin the world of the awake again next week.

While on anesthesia, I got to see a c-section. Since, I haven't done OB yet, this was my first birth expereince and boy was it amazing!! I had all I could do not to cry when I heard the babys first cries! Let's just say the clock is ticking faster and faster!

We had a pretty busy weekend, too. It was my MILs 50th bday party on Saturday afternoon and Sunday we met up with our friends from high school/college. It was so cute to see her all pregnant and I think I did a good job not being jealous. I am so happy for them, but at the same time it's hard not to be envious. Blah! I hate that little green-eyed monster!! I wish I could just be happy for the two of them, instead of this mixed happy-hormonal mix. But the days until we begin TTC are limited and at least then I'll feel like I'm doing something proactive instead of waiting for the days to tick by...

Well, I'm on Neuro right now and was blessed to have the 4 day weekend completely off

Wednesday Night hubby and I made our turkey and relaxed together. Even though both parents offer to send us home with leftovers, it's so much fun to make one together and do it our way. We joke that we're practicing for when we have everyone to our house someday.

Thursday We went to ILs around 11 and stayed until 4. MIL had around 20 people there, which was plenty of fun. My niece's were with their mom so we didn't catch them Then we went to my parents house which was a little quieter, but just as enjoyable. Since we're all huge bronco's fans we then went to a sportsbar and watched them lose to the chiefs. We've never been to a bar on Tgiving night, but it was a good time to catch-up with everyone (except for the game..boohoo)

Friday woke up at the a$$ crack of dawn for our yearly shopping trip. We always meet my friend (hs/college roommate) and her mom at a local dept store and go from 5-??. But they sisn't give out coupons. Bad move! I normally do a large chunk of my christmas shopping there and didn't spend a penny with them this year. Roomie was tired since she's preg and they went home around 930. All in all even though the shopping was a bust, it was great to get "estrogen" time with my mom again! I really wanted to tell her our big news, but know it will be even sweeter when we have something definite

Saturday DH and I worked on our christmas decorations and cleaned the house. We decided not to get a tree this year since we'll be gone the week before christmas, but did everything else. It was neat to decorate together since I normally do it when I'm off the wed before thanksgiving. Then we went christmas shopping and knocked off most of our list. However, we have no idea what to get either of our dads. (Any suggestions???) Came home and enjoyed a nice glass of wine My brother went to Napa to visit a friend at UC Berkley last spring break and brought home some great wine. Anyway, my parents decided to splurge (it's like $15 a bottle) and order some and gave each of us couples 2 bottles. We decided to have a some last night and save the other bottle for new years if I'm not preg, as kind of a consolation prize. Otherwise, we'll have it next year! (hopefully...)

Sunday
Woke up early and played catchup on the school work I've been neglecting all weekend. Now we're waiting for some friends to come over for football. Ok, they guys will watch football and we'll be chatting babies I love football, esp college; but none of my teams are on today for I'm all for some baby chatter.

Gotta Go! Less than 3 weeks til I put my toes in the sand again!!

Greetings from "RADIATION VACATION!!"

I'm 3 days into my radiology clerkship and so far I love it But, I think that's because the residents sign our cards and send us home to study after class. (or in my case obsess about TTC and attempt to study). The hours are nice

Every once and a while I'll find myself thinking, "I really like this, I could do it..." Then I have to remind myself that sitting there for a 1/2 hr and enjoying it is a whole lot different from being there for 8 hrs. But I find myself wondering why I like Radiology, when I love the patient contact of Psych so mych. I think it's the hours. I definitely don't feel like I'm detail orientatied enough for radiology, and I would miss the patient contact. Plus, I don't love procedures so IR is probably out.

I can't believe the holidays are almost here!! We leave for Key West on the 16th, so I feel like I have so much to get done before then! Thank goodness for radiology. I went and printed out our christmas letter this afternoon. My parents always did one growing up, because it's the easiest way for us military families to keep in touch. Hubby and I just send cards the past 2 years, but I thought it would be fun to write up a letter this year to send to our out of town family and friends. I can't help but be proud of our accomplishments this year, passing boards, his thesis and graduation Hopefully, it won't bore people to tears; but they can always throw it out! I just know I love getting christmas cards in the mail that say more than the generic "happy holidays! Love, the Smiths" I love going to visit my parents and reading through the ones they've recieved from the parents of my childhood friends, with whom I've since lost touch. It takes me back and there's always a suprise or two!!

Hope everyone is doing well!! Merry Christmas! Happy Holidays! I gotta go cook dinner since I promised Hubby some home cookin' But susie homemaker I am not and it will probably be spaghetti!

Well, hubby and I had a wonderful, relaxing vacation in Key West the week before Christmas! It was great to be at the beach again and feel the sun on my face after months in the dark hospital. Best of all, we got to spend a lot of quality time together, just cuddling and relaxing! It's our first month TTC, but I dropped my eggie (or as DH says, "droppin' like it's HOT" LOL!) over vacation, so the timing couldn't have been better...we'll just have to hope for the best :crossfingers: I really wanted to test on Christmas, but knew it was WAY too early and would be bummed all day if I saw that BFN! So I tested yesterday...BFN Hopefully, I'll be able to hold out until New Year's Eve, but I have a feeling I'll get impatient and check again before then.

Christmas was great but a little exhausting! All of DHs family lives in the same town as my parents so we hit 3 different places, whew! I think when we have kids we're gonna have to do Christmas eve with one family and Christmas day with the other, because it gets exhausting after a while. We'll see what next year will bring! All in all despite the exhaustion it was great to see everyone!

DH had to go back to work today, but I'm lucky enough to be off untl 1/3 But, I gotta get caught up on some major laundry and cleaning that we let slide over the holidays!

Well, couldn't keep myself from testing and I think it was a good thing because all those BFNs prepared me for when Aunt Flo showed up on New Year's Eve...GOOD BYE 2006!

I definitely had huge hopes for December and our vacation baby, only to get a little bummed. (ok, "little" is a bit of an understatement and by a "bit", I mean Huge!) I've spent how many years on BCPs and trying desperately to avoid getting pregnant so as not to throw a wrench in my MD plans; that despite knowing the statistics I thought it would be soooo easy to get preggers. Imagine my shock, when despite having A LOT of well-timed fun...no luck! Maybe the scare tactics involved in making us avoid teen-pregnancy only serve to make some very disappointed grown-up when we discover getting preg doesn't always happen the instant you have unprotected sex. Beginning to think of all the massages/vacations/baby furniture we could have purchased with all those contraceptive copays.

Not trying to sound bitter, just having a rough day and this seems to be the safest place to vent. It was hard hearing my male classmates talking about their preg wives today and hearing one admit that his latest is a bit of a "suprise". Plus, one of my female classmates looks visibly preggers, too. (and it's not just me seeing pregnant people everywhere). I'm happy for all of them; but it's kinda hard now that we're trying and wanting so bad. Plus, I spent yesterday shopping for a friend's baby shower and just realized that I still will be in baby limbo at her shower the end of the month.

But, I have a good feeling about January Maybe being around all the kiddos on Peds will do some magic! If not, I know we're still relatively young and it's only month number 2. Still thinking good thoughts about January and 2007!

Happy New Year!

Feeling a little better since the previous post Yes, still wanting and trying...but a little more settled. It will happen and like everything this year I just have to do my best and relinquish control over the rest. (Guess that's a bit like motherhood will be as well...)

A HUGE CONGRATS to Drey and all you other preggers out there!

I got assigned to outpt Peds first, which will be nice this month I don't have to be at my office until 1pm tomorrow! While on outpt, we also do 3 mornings in Newborn nursery and 2 ON call in the NICU. Looks like one of my call nights will fall right around peak time...anyone have any luck with those call room conjugals? JK! DH already promised to get up early the morning of and meet me at home for lunch post-call if need be. Maybe all those newborn experiences will get my ovaries all geared up

At the moment, we definitely enjoyed sleeping in the past 2 mornings and I plan to do that as much as I can before call starts again!

Well, after a bit of a break, since as the TTC wore on I wasn't sure if the "Mom" part of MomMD was going to come all that easily....I'm back!!

7 LONG months of TTC with my wacky cycles, and HSG, SA for DH and a round of clomid I am officially 8 weeks pregnant!! WOW! So happy to be on my way to mommyhood, but now I'm remembering why I fell in love with MomMd in the first place...all the wonderful advice! Can't get residency advice or tips on how to survive Q4 call with morning sickness on the TTC boards!

Looking forward to getting reacquainted with everyone again! Can't wait to see all the newbies and see everyone's plans for Residency.

I've definitely decided on Peds...just have to narrow down my program list and write my personal statement!

Ok, speaking of which gotta go look at some websites....