I am done with school in December, and this quarter is my final quarter of O-chem and I am getting a C. frown I am usually never stressed, but I have been the past few weeks because of the pressure I am under. I cannot let my gpa fall below the present 3.4 or it could affect my future.

After something that happened last week, I realised I'd better learn to handle this stress right now. When I called my husband's work last week and asked to speak with him, the waitress wanted to take a message, but it was important so I just said, "Ummm..." in a rude way, and she gave him the phone. He said he was too busy to go out to the car to look for the homework that I had misplaced, so in a bad mood I took the slowest bus ever to his work only a mile away. 45 minutes later I walked into his work (a restaurant) and wanted the keys. I guess I sounded short with my husband because I found out later that his manager actually YELLED at the poor waitress saying it was her fault I was in a bad mood. I didn't know I was acting THAT upset, I guess my feelings show more than I ever thought. I felt so bad, I honestly had no idea that my attitude could hurt someone else.

So this past week I have been amazed at how calm I have been. The craziest stuff happens to me, it's like a bad luck curse. A day or so later a taxi driver drops me off at school, and when I hand him my credit card he says he has no more credit card slips he'll have to drive me to an atm... and class was going to start in 5 minutes! "You should have asked for a cab with credit card slips" he says. "All of the cabs are supposed to accept credit cards", I say, it is your responsibility to keep slips with you." "Well, I ran out of slips." He says. Strangely, I remained calm. I was about to phone the company on my cell phone and demand another cab be dispatched to drop off slips when I stopped... I was going to let it go. No, I would not become upset and I would not take the time to complain. Then, luckily, the driver dug through his trunk and found an old, crumpled slip he could use. I was on time to my class.

Thinking about my O-Chem grade made my stomach hurt, so I calmed myself by realizing I would do something about it. We are on chapter 22, but I did what I had to do. I opened that book up to chapter 3 and began all over again. As of today I am up to chapter 15, and I have to keep going! It's like I've finally accepted, FULLY accepted the fact that my nose is going to be buried in books until December. It is official, I have reached the point in my education where cramming the night before a test will not earn me a good grade. Yes, the instructors warned us of that when we began the year of physics and ochem, but I did not believe them. I will die with an O-Chem book in my hand before I let it get the best of me again! That's right chemistry, you are going to wipe that smirk right off of your evil, molecular face when I get an A on my next test! In fact, the test will be SO easy for me that I will probably just take a nap during the first half of the hour. :crossfingers: