Oh, ATS! Internship is just the suckiest SUCK. It is awful.
... hard for me to enjoy my days off ...
You MUST find a way to enjoy your days off. Think of it as prophylaxis against depression, literally. I was an intern last year, and I used to try to plan a treat for myself -- a REAL treat -- on each day off. A massage, a facial, even an hour at Starbucks with a novel. Something to look forward to. I have a wards month coming up in a few weeks and I'm already scheming about facials and such. It's necessary, that's what I say.
I can't help but think that I could just quit now, have another baby ...
I had this thought, oh, every other minute last year. It really does get better, it truly does. I haven't contemplated quiting in weeks.
