i am a general practitioner, mom of 2 sons.
i was a brightly shining star when i was in high school. i was an honoured student that time. everything was easy, i passed university entrance exam smoothly and became a medical student in the top university in mt country. in my second year i was granted a position as an anatomy laboratory assistant (a very prestigious position). everything was amazing untill then i met a man, and married just after i finished my medical undergraduate, before i enter the clinical rotation. 4 months after that, i was pregnant, and he asked me to take one year time-off. i agreed because i love him so much. and everything, all my regrets started.... i couldn't cope with duties as a wife.... i couldn't believe i was in time-off.... i couldn't accept the reality.... and moreover i couldn't believe that i get a blasphemy from my mother in law. i couldn't understand why she underestimate me. she told my parents sold me (because my parent asked them to pay for the wedding stuff. my parent broke that time and i know for sure they even try to gat loan for that wedding. i don't really understand why some people who have money are so stingy), and now she told me that she owned me. that was the source of my long standing frustration. i tell u, in fact she wanted her daughter to become a doctor, and you know what she cheated. her daughter failed in all university entrance exam she took. but, she made it, she is a medical student now. she failed, but you know some private universities here offer failed candidates to pay great amount of money, and they will be considered pass the exam (it's cheating right, but it is).

and finally i went to uni again to complete my clinical rotation while i was pregnant for the second time, and graduated as a medical doctor in march this year. few month practiced medicine, i was faced to another dillema. my husband decided to study oversea, and he asked me to come along. i didn't want, but he forced my by reminding me to duties, compulsories as a wife, bla bla bla.... and i gave up and follow his words. i'm already 2 months here, still cannot practice medicine, and i'm going crazy. i'm loosing my mind, i'm in despair, i cannot find reason why i should live anylonger.... i'm like a zombie, just a body, no soul.... and he...finally undestand me, he agreed to send me back to my hometown where i can live my life to serve community as a doctor... i'm going back next month, i will build my life once again, just from the very beginning. i will gather all pieces of my ruined dream. i'm going back, i'm going back... i will miss my husband for few years ahead, but now we know both of us must live happily even with sacrify, instead of living physical togetherness which make one of us feel bitter and sorrow. thanks to my husband.... i do really love you that sometimes i don't realize that i hurt you when i hurt my self...
i'll be back to live my dream, be a doctor, care our sons...
to you... please study hard, complete your study, catch your dream, and be back soon...
then we'll be no more separated...

I think that is true for many of us here!

Your story seems very sad to me, but at least your husband finally understands how important it is for you to be practicing medicine. I'm sure it would have been much harder to return to medicine if you had stayed with him overseas for several years. Good luck with the return to your hometown.

Good luck

Oh and I'm sure you are needed there and will be so appreciated, with a mind, body & soul! If you ever have the opportunity, take The Art of Living Course - its awesome!

Thank you for being so authentic and true....when are masks are off, we can truly help one another. good luck.