Despite having a home office and theoretical complete control over my working hours, I have worked full-time and used the services of nannies and au pairs to help raise my daughter and manage our household. And that’s not including some help from a housekeeper and a gardener. Yes, it has been a good professional life with plenty of balance… and yet something has been missing.
It finally dawned on me a couple of months ago, as my daughter’s eighth birthday was nearing, that her childhood years are passing all too fast, and that the missing I was feeling was “missing out”! Her childhood was slipping through my fingers like fine sand, only to be washed out to sea forever.
In the face of my entrepreneurial ambition and desire to build a worthwhile and meaningful business, I’ve been confronted by a decision. One that I believe many of you have faced.
To work full-time or not to work full-time? Ah, that is the question for many women physicians.
I’ve been confronting all kinds of fears:
- What will my clients say if I’m not quite as available?
- How will I find enough hours in the day to get everything done?
- What will I think of myself, if I’m now something of a stay-at-home mom?
- What will my husband say (or think, and not feel comfortable saying)?
- What will happen to our income?
- What will others think?
- How will I satisfy my creative needs, when business building has been such a satisfying outlet
Any of this sound familiar?
I’ve plowed through my anxieties and objections and reached this conclusion:
On my deathbed, I will rue the loss of my daughter’s childhood 1000 times more than the dollars I might stand to make at the level at which I’ve been working!
All of a sudden, it’s a no-brainer.
And the good news is, I’m still going to be a physician business coach and educator. I’m just going to do it a whole lot smarter. I’ll have 7 to 8 hours each day to accomplish my goals and still be there to pick my daughter up from school. What more does a stay-at-home working physician entrepreneur-mom need?
Am I crazy?