Today is not such a good day. I've been thinking about my debt and feeling down. the thought of having to refinance scares me, there is only one debt that I don't have under control and that's my student loan.
Anyway, I do have options like full time or part time private practice, but I guess I'm lazy, I just want to have one job, that I like.
Other thing is I don't want to do it just for the money.
Anyway on a brighter note...where is that damn note :confused:
I still have so much to be thankful for. We are pretty well off for money, but I just want my personal finances under control.
My period is due this weekend, which is taking forever to arrive, lots of things planned for the weekend too :cool:
I'm learning slowly, painfully to take one day at a time and enjoy each breath.
i have been slacking a little on my excercise programme but not less than five times per week.
It's working tho, I don't feel too down for too long anymore .
I've also noticed that I'm al ot more confident or is it fearless
All in all more good than bad happening ...oh and I washed my car today, it's so clean inside (I vacuumed too)
Well I'm off the pill and waiting for my period.
I might start school in the fall after all, if I'm accepted.
Sometimes i feel a little anxious...alright a lot anxious about the future, but as weird as it may seem, I watched SAWII last night and it got me thinking seriously, if I should find out the exact time and date of my death, what would I want to do before it happened.
That is some serious Sh!t.
It forces you to strip off all the crap that you don't really care about and go to your core and find what's truly important.
It's scary but you do feel strangely alive...really ALIVE.
Anyway, I'm huingry but very picky these days. I bit a bagel but don't want anymore. Still hungry.
I'm not sure what to eat. Maybe some fruit.
So the story unfolds.
Wow I just looked at the date of my last post and realized that it was 3 weeks ago.
I did get my period, my first since being off the pill and am waiting now to see if the secon d one shows up. :crossfingers:
I was a bit disappointed when the P came but I guess it allows for better dating and the establishment of a pattern.
It seems that I might be starting my MSc in August/Sept after all and I'm a bit nervous.
I was worried about the possibility of a baby during the program but what the heII. I'll handle it.
I won't be doing calls and hopefully most weekends will be free.
Los of independent work and tutorials and stuff.
Hubby doesn't seem to think it's a big deal either.
I can't keep planning my life around my career.
Right now work is hectic as I'm getting involved in lots of stuff.
i have a love/hate relationship with my present job.
Right now it's love :hyper:
Well its next weekend and the P has arrived.
We'll see what happens this month, whether I go back on the pill until a time more conducive to this whole thing, or just run with it and start living by faith a little more.
I'm having cramps and just swallowed a couple of pills.
Hope they help.
I've spent the past two days at home. Got a bit of cleaning done.
All in all good weekend. :yes:
Well lots of stuff planned for April.
Need to keep up with the physical activity.
Walking the same route every day has gotten boring.
I want to get a treadmill so that I can read and walk and listen to music or whatever and not have to worry about dodging cars.
I am at home sick.
I continue to be amazed by the wonders of modern medicine.
I took 2 p@r@cetamol and feel so much better.
It's like a miracle.
Anyway I hope I feel completely better tomorrow, I don't wanna be sick over the long weekend coming up.
I'm not sure what I'm gonna do though.
I'm hungry now but don't have the energy to cook.
The medication is not THAT good.
Maybe I'll just toss some veggies and franfurters and pasta together.
Easiest thing right now.
I think I need to take it easy at work.